Thursday, August 13, 2009

Crying 'til the pain goes away....

As I lay in bed, millions of thoughts ran through my head. Thoughts that I needed to express, but had no one to express them to. Thoughts that only I was thinking. Thoughts that could bring tears to my eyes but a smile to my face simultaneously. Thoughts that hurt and made me feel less than nothing. Thoughts of jealously and rage. Thoughts of what used to be and thoughts of what could've have been.
For weeks I wanted to begin this blog but I had no idea where to begin. These thoughts were my inspiration and my new beginnings start now. Love.
I've recently learned that Love comes in so many different forms. Love, in some ways, is very similar to God. You don't know when he'll show up, but a lot of the times you're unaware that He's there. Same with Love. However, I feel Love reveals itself at all the wrong times. When you think you have everything figured out, Love comes and makes alterations to your whole plan. When you think you love someone, Love reveals itself in someone else and your forced to face the truth. Better yet, when you think you love someone but your a bit unsure of how to handle certain situations, Love may leave. When Love leaves its hard to get him back. Granted, Love leaves and he tells you "only time will tell". But Love doesn't understand that my heart doesn't know the time, nor do the tears and guilt.
Inspiration came this morning. Along with my thoughts. Love... he's on the other side. God... I'm on his side. Pain is leaving as the sun rises and the tears are drying from the rays of light.
My confidence is here, and I believe Love will be home soon. Love will be returning to his home where he belongs. His home is a place that I'd like to call Heart.

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